Fortitude......... I am inspired by this word, because I know I need some right now..
I haven't done any 'art' for months now, I haven't felt the motivation as my heart has been so very heavy. I guess I am scared I will just take the pen or pencil and scribble so dark and hard that I would tear my very good quality journals to pieces!!
It's one year since I lost my Mum this coming Monday............ it still hurts like it was yesterday :(
On Sunday we are taking her ashes to the deep blue ocean and scattering her, as per her wishes.
It will be sad, but I know I have to do this 'for' her.
I might paint something - with the word FORTITUDE..
Definitions of fortitude
n. - Power to resist attack; strength; firmness. 2
n. - That strength or firmness of mind which enables a person to encounter danger with coolness and courage, or to bear pain or adversity without murmuring, depression, or despondency; passive courage; resolute endurance; firmness in confronting or bearing up against danger or enduring trouble. 2
I have been reading and listening to some online counselling sessions for dealing with infidelity, and for working towards repairing the damage and heartache that it causes. One bit from a lot of advice, is to 'charge neutral' - which I now realise basically means show fortitude!! Don't get entwined in the anger and try to remain calm and composed - as this behaviour alone will scare the bejeezus out of the cheating spouse (esp if they are wanting to make amends LOL) See, I really DO need fortitude!!
I wish you my visitors, a good day, I'm going to try to make tomorrow a good day - I haven't had one in such a loooooooong time :(