5 October 2010
One day rolls into the next
I've been trying to keep busy making jewellery for an upcoming fair...... but the recent events still shock me........ still hurt to my core.
it hurts like hell.............
I'm still so angry - at BOTH of THEM!!
I just can't believe it all.
It's a saga, an ongoing saga.
I try to build myself each day, and each day I cry.
Sunday I sobbed and cried pretty much the entire day!
Yesterday I made a tutu skirt for the table with Bec - well half of it with Bec. I finished it last night.
Today I am going to try to make more jewellery, perhaps I should journal or finish some of my paintings - but I have a big mess around my table, and can't find the energy needed to tidy up. So it's easier to do the jewellery at this point.
My head hurts quite frequently..... stress? crying? mentally being obsessed with crap? anxiety?
Who knows, but I'm over it....
I want to run away - I need FAITH, I need to breathe! I need motivation.
Perhaps I should photograph the pretty things I've made, even that will take me forever and I just can't find the motivation!
For now, I just sigh.