29 December 2010

The Awakening

A time comes in your life when you finally get it... When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH!! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes.

This is your awakening.

You realize that it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate, or approve of who or what you are...and that's OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions). And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

You stop bitching and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it's not always about you. So you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself and in the process a sense of safety & security is born of self-reliance.

You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process a sense of peace & contentment is born of forgiveness.

You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the crap you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look and how much you should weigh, what you should wear and where you should shop and what you should drive, how and where you should live and what you should do for a living, who you should marry and what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children of what you owe your parents. You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for. You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with and in the proces s you learn to go with your instincts.

You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.

You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a by gone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life. You learn that you don't know everything: it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then you learn about love. Romantic love and familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes.

You learn that just as people grow and change so it is with love... and you learn that you don't have the right to demand love on your terms...just to make you happy.

And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely...And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you "stack up". You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK...and that it is your right to want things and to ask for the things that you want... and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands.

You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won't settle for less. And, you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his touch...and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect. And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest.

And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn, that for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve...and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen.

More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it's OK to risk asking for help. You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time. FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms.

And you learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - the ego. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.

You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart's desire. And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.

Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you take a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.

by: Virginia Swift.

I enjoyed reading that, and thought I would share it. I may not 'get' all of it yet, and maybe never will - but I will certainly try to remember it and put it into practice.

I hope you enjoyed it too.

Lorri xo

14 December 2010

Giveaway, Limited Edition Print for OWOH

My OWOH Up to a possible 6 Giveaways - 4 x Limited Edition Prints from original artwork by me, 1 piece of hand-made jewellery & a tote bag.... more visitors = more prizes - so tell your friends to visit too!

It's MY BIRTHDAY (feb 5) I'm feeling generous, so YOU get the gifts :)

Possibly a piece of my hand-made

And......... maybe a tote bag also hand-made by me.

Enter by commenting below.

ONE WORLD ONE HEART = It's time to blog trek again WOOHOO!!

Please visit the link above for all the information if you want to participate.

Thank you for popping by my blog - Lately it's been filled with a little of "Life's Events" and not so much art, but if you scroll on down to older posts you can see my creativity. My blog is filled with my emotions and is therefore not edited to please - it's a pouring of my soul, and open book into my life. My art brings me solace and it is through it that I can release, let go and be distracted from unpleasant things/thoughts/feelings. My art makes me happy and I would love to be able to share my art and creativity with you. Please visit my other posts and say hello.
If you would like to FOLLOW my blog, that would be appreciated too :)

I haven't yet decided how many giveaways I will have - most likely a few limited edition PRINTS from my paintings along with some jewellery and a tote bag - I'm feeling generous. :) The more comments I receive, the more prints I will give away!!

My first giveaway is the print above "Let peace fill you" - I hope you enjoy browsing my blog and viewing my art & creativity. I look forward to returning the visit to your blog :)

Good Luck, and please visit the rest of my blog, let me know what you think and please say hello :)

30 November 2010

26 November 2010


One of my Digital compositions - Prints available just ask :)

Fortitude......... I am inspired by this word, because I know I need some right now..

I haven't done any 'art' for months now, I haven't felt the motivation as my heart has been so very heavy. I guess I am scared I will just take the pen or pencil and scribble so dark and hard that I would tear my very good quality journals to pieces!!

It's one year since I lost my Mum this coming Monday............ it still hurts like it was yesterday :(
On Sunday we are taking her ashes to the deep blue ocean and scattering her, as per her wishes.
It will be sad, but I know I have to do this 'for' her.

I might paint something - with the word FORTITUDE..

Definitions of fortitude
n. - Power to resist attack; strength; firmness. 2
n. - That strength or firmness of mind which enables a person to encounter danger with coolness and courage, or to bear pain or adversity without murmuring, depression, or despondency; passive courage; resolute endurance; firmness in confronting or bearing up against danger or enduring trouble. 2

I have been reading and listening to some online counselling sessions for dealing with infidelity, and for working towards repairing the damage and heartache that it causes. One bit from a lot of advice, is to 'charge neutral' - which I now realise basically means show fortitude!! Don't get entwined in the anger and try to remain calm and composed - as this behaviour alone will scare the bejeezus out of the cheating spouse (esp if they are wanting to make amends LOL) See, I really DO need fortitude!!

I wish you my visitors, a good day, I'm going to try to make tomorrow a good day - I haven't had one in such a loooooooong time :(


8 November 2010

Travel Tote Bag


A gorgeous combination of travel fabric, inside pockets and the perfect size to stash all those goodies.

Handles are triple stitched so it can tolerate being filled to the brim with all your goodies.

Hand-made by me.

Approx finished size 14 x 16 inches.

Disclaimer: Hand-made items are not always totally perfect, they are perfect in their quirkiness and originality. No slave labour, or production assembly lines are involved. Not tested on animals, contains no harsh chemicals...... 100% safe and natural.

Postage Costs are AUSTRALIAN delivery only - for international order, please contact me for additional postage cost to be invoiced - thank you.

Pink & Red Polka Dot TOTE bag

A gorgeous combination of pink and red polka dot hard-wearing plastic outside fabric, inside black cotton lining. A perfect size to stash all those goodies.

Handles are triple stitched so it can tolerate being filled to the brim with all your goodies. My machine wasn't really a fan of this plastic fabric, hence the reduced price as it contains a teeny tiny pucker on the inside of bag - unseen on outside though :)

Hand-made by me.

Approx finished size 14 x 16 inches.

Disclaimer: Hand-made items are not always totally perfect, they are perfect in their quirkiness and originality. No slave labour, or production assembly lines are involved. Not tested on animals, contains no harsh chemicals...... 100% safe and natural.

Mushroom Tote - Reversible

A gorgeous combination of co-ordinating fabrics, inside pockets and the perfect size to stash all those goodies.

Handles are triple stitched so it can tolerate being filled to the brim with all your goodies.

You can flip the bag inside out for a different look, with the pockets on the outside. All inside stitching is hidden, and this tote is reversible.

Hand-made by me.

Approx finished size 14 x 16 inches.

Disclaimer: Hand-made items are not always totally perfect, they are perfect in their quirkiness and originality. No slave labour, or production assembly lines are involved. Not tested on animals, contains no harsh chemicals...... 100% safe and natural.

3 November 2010

Jewellery making frenzy

I have been a busy little bee - look at 'some' of the new pretties -

I'm attending a school fete on Sunday and will be setting up my display, like the last fair - I hope to sell some of my hand-made jewellery and some of my tote bags..

All items are for sale if you are interested :)

20 October 2010

Tonight I spent some time going over some 'old' things from the last affair he had..... it was quite an eye opener.. nothing has changed... well nothing that needed to change has changed!!

Here's a poem I found that I had saved back in 2004........... when I discovered his 1st affair.

The Chair
I feel like that old torn-up and battered chair you see turned on it's side at the edge of the road. I was discarded there as if I had no value...just a useless piece of trash. He found himself another chair...one that was fresher...one that was more comfortable...one that could make him feel good. One that didn’t complain! He tried this chair out, he liked it so much that he used it over and over again, until this same chair also began to feel too comfortable, too boring. Someone told me about his other chair and then he finally admitted he had found another. Now he has finally begun his journey searching for the chair he left on the side of the road. He has gently picked it up and brought it home. After being left in the elements for so long it is not quite the same, but he doesn't mind. Hopefully he will tenderly clean it and try to restore it. It is not strong enough to hold him now, but that's OK. He will derive pleasure from working to make it whole, so that one day he can again sit in the most beautiful, comfortable chair in the world and hopefully that chair will be strong enough to hold him, to wrap it’s arms around him and make him feel safe. Otherwise it will rot wherever it rests.

Once again I feel like the discarded chair......... only this time, I don't think he will be able to 'restore' it, for it has been too badly damaged.

16 October 2010

A short poem by me for me

My poem for today. -

"I need an angel of my own today to take away the pain, to remove all the heartache & to keep me sane. An Angel of truth to hit HIM on the head, to take away all my frustrations and the dread. I hate the way I feel and the angry bitch that I've become, I want to turn it all off, and just become numb."

13 October 2010

Crystals & Pearls Dangly Bracelet Tutorial

TUTORIAL by Lorri Lennox

Today I made this - Here's a step by step, quick tutorial, basic beading experience necessary :)

Materials required:

  • Jewellery Pliers, assorted including round nose for creating loops
  • Scissors for cutting stretch elastic
  • Strong jewellery glue for gluing ends of elastic once cut
  • Stretch Elastic Cord
  • Jump Rings (your colour choice) - 4mm & 6mm
  • Headpins
  • Pearls - (your colour choice) 12mm x 10
  • Pearls (smaller ones) 6mm x 10
  • Crystals - Round - 6mm x 10 of one colour, 6mm x 10 of contrast colour
  • Crystals - Bicone x 20 - 4mm your colour choice

Add a headpin & create a loop (as shown) on all the individual 6mm crystals.
20 crystals in total...

Add headpins & form loops on the 10 x 6mm pearls.
Add the larger 6mm jump rings to the loops created.

Each crystal and pearl should now look like this -

Using the smaller 4mm Jump rings, Open them and connect one of each contrasting crystal and one of the pearls to it. Make sure you connect through the larger jump ring on the pearl so the pearl hangs lower than the crystals. Continue this process with the rest of the crystals and pearls, therefore creating 10 sets of 3 danglies.

Gather your 4mm bicone crystals together, Get your stretch elastic ready, Ream the larger pearls to ensure easier threading through the elastic, and gather your danglies...

Begin threading onto the elastic in the following order - a large pearl (note I changed colour here)
followed by a 4mm bicone crystal, followed by a 3 set dangly, followed by a 4mm bicone crystal.

REPEAT until all your crystals, pearls and danglies are threaded as such -

Tie the elastic ends together securely, I do 4 knots and pull very tightly, being careful not to break the elastic (quality counts!!) Add a little strong glue to the knot. Cut off elastic ends.

Wear with a smile :)

I hope you enjoyed my little tutorial, I had fun making this today :)

Lorri xo